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I got Mark's death certificate yesterday and the grief hit me like a ton of bricks. It has his three causes listed and I just bawled like a baby. I guess I said it was my fault. I know it's not my fault, but I feel so bad he had to suffer through pain at a younger age. It's so weird how just recently things hit me making me cry like shredding old bills and even TV shows we watched together. Grief is weird and so random at times

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Go Easy on Yourself . Grief comes in waves and I am Not sure it ever Leaves You . Some People are easier to Let go of than others .
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This is normal. We grieve when we can bear it. Sometimes it is delayed because we aren't ready to look it in the eyes. You are doing well. Expect these "blindsides", girl. They are normal. All of a sudden out of nowhere they will hit and send you reeling. That is normal.
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Moms been gone 7 yrs. She had Dementia for 6 yrs. I did not more at her passing but I do get teary when I talk about her or see a picture. So, yes, it can blindside you.
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Hi doggiemom, we never know how we are going to handle it until we are there. No one does. 😢
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I understand where you are. My husband died on Nov 5th, and my grief is overwhelming as well. People come to visit and when they leave I just cry and cry. When I have to go out I come home to an empty house and I just break down. People tell me it gets better, but so far it hasn't.
I have to go pick up his ashes, and I know that will trigger another round of sadness and grief. I don't think I will ever be the same agai I miss him every minute..
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I'm so sorry for your loss.
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I’m so sorry, DoggieMom. We know that Mark didn’t take care of himself and his death was never your fault, as you say in your post. You did everything you could for him while it was possible. Let those thoughts comfort you, and I hope you feel better soon.
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My husband died October 3rd, my mom died earlier this year in January. I took care of both of them. If this is hell then I am in it. I am so lost, I too felt the part of grief that I shoulda, coulda, done something different to "save" them.
Mom was 101 and had a multitude of health issues.
Hubby was 73 and also had many issues, dementia, copd, chronic pain, addiction to painkillers.
Telling myself they are free and no longer suffering doesn't help. Everything triggers tears, depression.
Some days, I am ok, but on a weekend night like this the night feels long and endless.
Friends and family check in with me contstantly, take me out, but grief is just a wave I have to ride.
I know what you mean by the death certificate, so real, so final, so true.
I am 64 and have a long time to live, I imagine if I take care of myself. So I'm trying to recover from being a caretaker for so long by trying to exercise, eat well and finally get some decent sleep. But I have to force myself to do these things, as I currently could give a crap about all the self care I complained so much about missing out on when I was taking care of them and feeling pulled in a million different directions.
Yeah, everything makes me cry too. Hugs to you, DoggieMom86.
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